Those Eyes

Every where we go people stop and tell me how beautiful your eyes are. Just the other day when we were at the grocery store a group of fire fighters stopped us to comment on your eyes. And while they are right in the glorious beauty of those eyes...they don't really get to see them. They don't get to see the excitement that fills your eyes when you learn how to do something new. They don't get to see the love when daddy comes home, or I get you out of your crib in the morning or when Griffin plays with you. They don't get to see the kindness in your eyes when you lean in for a hug or kiss or try to share a treasure you have found. They don't get to see the sleepiness when you reach your arms up to lay your head on my shoulder. They don't get to see the joy when you walk out with a book and we pick you up to read it together. They don't get to see the curiousness in your eyes when you find a new spot in the house to explore. They don't get to see the gentle, loving spirit that pours out of your eyes to the world. We are blessed because we get to see your eyes...

On this day a year ago you gave us a moment of uncertainty when you just weren't ready to come into the world. When the nurses and doctors couldn't regain your heartbeat and your little body went into distress my mind went in so many directions as they wheeled me back to the operating room, and I was counting down the seconds laying on that table with your daddy next to my head, waiting to hear you cry. I knew that it would all be okay, but I couldn't wait to meet you face to face and finally out you came with just a little whimper, and while I had to wait a while to hold you and love you, your daddy got to see you right away and walk with you into the nursery. He told me how beautiful you were. When I got to finally hold you, you looked up at me with those eyes, I had already fallen in love with you before you born, but you took my breath away. While that day, one year ago, left a permanent mark on my body...you my beautiful angel, have left a permanent mark on my heart.

Happy Birthday my love...